It is New Year's Eve 2024. The last day of the year that has passed. Every single day seemed a struggle. People are talking now about their resolutions. The definition of resolution is, "A firm decision to do or not to do something." ,(Oxford Definitions). A firm decision...How many of us really make a firm decision. Think about it. How long does your firm decision last? My firm decision sometimes lasts. More times than not, I end of self-sabotaging. My firm decision this year is to NOT self-sabotage.
I have been rewatching the series, "The Chosen." It is on Prime Video. It is an excellent series about the life of Jesus and His Disciples. The thing that strikes me the most is how much scripture that they all know and study. It is helpful to me to watch this series. It keeps my mind on the right things. It helps me to know that I can move forward, and that Jesus is with me. I am never alone. Having Complex PTSD, Vestibular Migraines, Seizures, Balance Issues, being a fall risk, and the list goes on and on, plus the anxiety and stress of being estranged from my adult daughter, is overwhelming on a day to day basis. I need Jesus every hour of every single day. In Psalms 139:8-9 NIV it says, "If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there." I cannot tell you how many times I have made my bed in the depths, but this says, He is there. Psalms 139:11-12 NIV, " 'If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,' even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you."
What is my New Year's resolution, my firm decision? I am going to memorize scripture. I need these words in my mind and heart. To know God is with me everywhere I go, and every moment of every single day, is a comfort and gives me strength. I admit, many times I keep my focus on the wrong things. No matter, now long this estrangement lasts, God is with me. God is with my daughter. She may be keeping herself silent, and at a distance from me for now, however, she cannot keep herself from God. So, I pray. I pray blessings for her every single day.
Make no mistake. Today is a hard day. The enemy wants to thwart every positive step I take. He wants to thwart everything that any of God's people do. He wants us to stay oppressed, and depressed. God wants us to know the joy of His love and healing and peace. I have goals to meet, and people to bless. I don't have time for the nonsense of the enemy. I will be reminding myself of that every single day. I know, I keep saying that over and over in this blog. I want to emphasize how important it is to keep God's word in front of us at all times.
You may or may not have a relationship with Jesus. Your faith my lie somewhere else. I do not know. I have no way of knowing who reads this blog and who does not, unless you subscribe and follow. I would love for you to do so. If you choose not to, that is ok too. I am simply sharing what Nelson and I are doing to keep moving forward and heal during this time that we find ourselves waiting.
On another note...I am still working on all the things required to become Mrs. Tennessee America. I have lost 36 pounds at this point. I am working on losing 10 more. I am toning up, and working the plan that my trainer has set out for me. If you need a great trainer, her name is Sky Smith. You can find her on @lemon8unitedstates @skysmitfit. Lemon8 is an app that is taking over for TikTok, because of the TikTok ban that begins in January. You can also follow me for my Mrs. Chattanooga on the same forum at @mrs..chattanooga. I would love to see you there!
Remember that you are loved and enough. Comment below, Nelson and I would love to hear from you.
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